Monday, August 30, 2010


I struggle
for my footing.

Reprimands
frequently surprise me.

Chastise me.
For what?

You say, "Ask."
I do.

Reprimanded once again.

I do not submit lightly
nor easily.

Yet you demand it
without giving knowledge in return.

You show me your world
But refuse to allow me in.

I am a shadow in the corner.
Glance past me.

Clean my cobwebs
but never illuminate my inner crevices.

Has my life been so charmed
that this struggle is the nature of the outsider?

A foreign experience
to the sliver spoon.

Or has it simply been
a strength of character
that allows me to turn away
from those who shun me?

Not today. I yearn to know this world that feels like a missing part of my soul.

Demands.

Grovel for acceptance.
Shed the layers you disapprove of.

I think not.
I refuse to submit.

And therefore must wander this path alone,
the blind leading the sightless.

Where shall we go?

I have been assured there is pain ahead.
Just as the pain echoes behind
in my cavern of ignorance.

We wander
together
alone
one wanting
one following

Who will show us the bloody light?
Who will bind us in erotic delight?
Who will guide us through mental chains so tight?

I do not know.
And I weep.

I will not submit
Not to the weak of mind.
But to the strong of heart.

Where are you?
Who are you?
Are you?


Wednesday, August 18, 2010


Stretch, shuffle.
Twitch, twist.
Fidget, fumble.
Click, Click.

Sigh. Snap.

I shut my laptop,
Pause the race,
Calm my thoughts.

I lower
My face,
My guards and my will.

I melt,
And close my eyes...

Becoming his pet.
A kitten, curled loose.
No purr required.

Such peace I find
Prone at his side,
Cheek warm and quiet against his thigh.

His eyes focus above me
On things of no import.

His fingers dance beside me,
A teasing sort of sport.

I catch those playful digits
like a nip-laced kitty toy.

His quiet laugh rewards me
and my pleasure overcomes

Any thoughts of powerful women,
Objectification or mere strife.

I know only the love he shows
to me, his pet and wife.